“Of course all A.A.'s, even the best, fall far short of such
achievements as a consistent thing. Without necessarily taking that first
drink, we often get quite far off the beam. Our troubles sometimes begin with
indifference. We are sober and happy in our A.A. work. Things go well at home
and office. We naturally congratulate ourselves on what later proves to be a
far too easy and superficial point of view. We temporarily cease to grow
because we feel satisfied that there is no need for all of A.A.'s Twelve Steps
for us. We are doing fine on a few of them. Maybe we are doing fine on only two
of them, the First Step and that part of the Twelfth where we "carry the
message." In A.A. slang, that blissful state is known as
"two-stepping." And it can go on for years. The best-intentioned of
us can fall for the "two-step" illusion. Sooner or later the pink
cloud stage wears off and things go disappointingly dull. We begin to think
that A.A. doesn't pay off after all. We become puzzled and discouraged. Then
perhaps life, as it has a way of doing, suddenly hands us a great big lump that
we can't begin to swallow, let alone digest. We fail to get a worked-for
promotion. We lose that good job. Maybe there are serious domestic or romantic
difficulties, or perhaps that boy we thought God was looking after becomes a
military casualty.”- From the chapter on Step Twelve from the AA Twelve and
Twelve
When we first receive alcohol rehab through going to a drug addiction detox, AA, or Above It All Treatment Center many of us have the desperation needed to do the work in order to stay
sober. As time goes by, we begin to feel better and get wonderful, busy lives
as a result of the hard work we have done in recovery. We start to rest on our
laurels sometimes without even being aware of it. While many of us can skate by
for a little bit on service work, the fact is that it usually catches up to us
and at some point we end up feeling like our world is crashing down around us,
and we end up robbing ourselves of the gifts that come from having emotional
sobriety. It is up to us to realize we get out what we put in and to remain
diligent in our recovery process.
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